She also dives deep into her personal pains and reckonings, exploring what it's like to be a First Nations "girly" in this world.Where Dropbear was a furious battle cry, The Rot is more despairing, capturing the whiplash that comes with watching "all that horror hovering six inches from your face" and then getting up to go to work.This is not always an easy read, both in its intellectuality and in the palpable pain on every page The checkpoint and its potential for violence is something she is familiar with, she writes, from anthropological fieldwork