A shattered Kalyn Ponga has admitted he feels responsible for Queensland's State of Origin collapse after his dramatic send-off late in the series opener.Ponga faced the media with blood dripping from his ear after the Maroons' 22-20 loss to NSW at Stadium Australia, where he became just the seventh player sent off in Origin history.The Newcastle superstar has avoided a ban for the shoulder charge on Tolu Koula, instead able to pay a $6,900 fine for the match-shaping incident.But he felt pain enough watching on as the Maroons surrendered a 22-6 lead, as the Blues pulled off the biggest comeback in Origin history."I'm not proud of it," Ponga said."The boys had to work a lot harder because of me being off the field so that is something I am not proud of I was the reason it happened."Origin greats were left "in shock" by the decision to send Kalyn Ponga off.Former Maroons captain Darren Lockyer said it was undeniably "the turning point" in the match and a bitter pill to swallow, arguing on-field referee Ashley Klein overruled the bunker to dismiss Ponga for the rest of the game rather than sending him to the sin-bin or 10 minutes."I'm still in shock about the Kalyn Ponga decision," the veteran of 36 Origin matches said on Channel Nine after the Blues' 22-20 victory in Sydney."That's the turning point; we lose the game off the back of that